Do you ever...

Feel like everyone around you is living a valuable, eventful, exciting, remarkable, memorable life, and in your case, you're merely existing.

Everyone around you is moving a million miles a minute. Life is moving forward for everyone else, and you're there standing still watching the world pass you by.

That may sound incredibly depressing but that thought crossed my mind today. Often I feel like I'm just 'here'. Am I making an impact on anyone's life. Is my simple existence in my everyday, non eventful life significant? There are numerous days where I go to work, come home and that's what my day looks like. I'm sad to say that I don't have many friends here, which can really make life lonely, and difficult.

I question my decision to move here frequently. Am I happy, was it the right choice? Without a doubt I was brought here for a reason, but what IS that reason? What is my purpose here, am I fulfilling it? These are questions I ask myself on a daily basis. Am I supposed to be in a time of self reflection and growth? Is this a time in my life where I'm meant simply to just 'be'?

What am I doing with my life. I suppose rather than just going to work and coming home I have a lot of reflection time. Maybe I'm supposed to be spending time with God figuring out who I am, what my heart is like, where I'm headed career wise. I honestly don't know. And after feeling like I've been in this 'season' for 2 years. Frankly I'm ready for it to pass.

I'm tired of feeling like I merely exist. I want a meaningful, remarkable, valuable, exciting life. So, now I suppose I must ask...what do I need to do to get myself there.

It's been a while

So, back to blogging. I just took an unintended hiatus from blogging. I'm back now and hopefully will have reason to blog. Life has been rather uneventful the past few months. I'm living in a new place, with a new job, apartment and so on. I've been able to spend time with my family which is always enjoyable. Work is going well, crazy but good for the most part. Granted I work with 3 and 4 year olds so sometimes I feel like running in the opposite direction. My co-teacher's husband had open heart surgery last week so I'm not even sure if she's coming back. Work is extremely tiring right now but I'm hoping it will only improve. I've been living in a pretty sweet apartment since the end of July, it's in a good location and is a pretty quiet place to live even though there are about 15 buildings. I found a church...FINALLY. After two years of living here and sometimes feeling like giving up on a search, I've found one. The best part is, my sister in law and nieces are coming with me. It's the best to be able to have them there with me and see my nieces enjoying going to church (even though sometimes the like to pretend that they don't). Well...hopefully I'll be able to update this sooner than later. I'm headed to another race this weekend, so I'm looking forward to that. I'm off for now.